You know how we all have one thing that’s not a very good idea for us to be around it. That one thing that you need and when you get it you can’t leave it. For some that thing may be shopping or drinking or unsafe adventures… well for me that thing is food.
For me being around too much delicious culinary creations is like to hire an alcoholic for a barman. I’m pretty sure most of you have seen the tv series Friends, well if you have you know how Monica used to be … a little chubby and then she lost a lot of weight and became a chef. Well unfortunatly my life is a copy of hers. Althought i was never that fat, when I was a kid and pretty much when I was a teenager I was reaaaally overweight. And as you all probably know being fat as a kid is some kind of a punishment from god and all of the other kids go border line cruel on you and abuse you and all that .. stuff. Even though I didn’t put weight because of overeating (I put it on because I had medical problems and I had to take meds and eat a lot of carbs to help my organism recover) the other kids did not care about that and after so much abuse I became depressed and you know how when you are depressed sometimes the only thing that helps is food. A lot of it! … Soo you know where this is going my life became a vicious cyrcle until one day when I couldn’t take it any more. By that time I was about 15 or 16 years old. And how does a teenager loose weight? Well it’s not the healthy way for sure. So from being overweight I became almost anorexic for months. I lost about 45 or 50 pounds and I still tought I was fat. I became home schooled, I was sick all day long and I stopped eating at all.
You know may be my story is not as pleasant as Monicas. 😀 But anyway I don’t need to go in details, cause you know these kind of stories, some of them have a tragic ending and I’m so thankful that mine turned around. After some period of time I started to look at myself a different way … a healthier way. I started eating healthy foods and pulled myself together. To this day I find flaws in my figure I’m never happy with the way I look, but most of us are that way. The important thing is that now I know that my health is my priority and i know that people are always going to talk, but now I know that there is nothing wrong with me. I’m perfect in my own way. And we all are, but not everybody knows that. Every day millions of teenagers look at themselfs in the mirror and they can only thing about some imaginary flaws imposed by the society. And even tough I’m still afraid of the day when I might slip and go overboard I’ve made it my dream to become a culinary expert and find a way to help all the kids who are now where I was then and show them that there is a way and there is always hope and help them see what we all actually see: a beautiful young person who is just lost in the hate of the society. Back then I didn’t think that I will ever be interested in food or cooking but now I belive that there is not a better path I could have taken.
That post was just to show you that life can push us in the most unexpected direction and we sould just embrace it and most of all we should learn how to be good people, because sometimed we may not know that we are hurting someone with own actions.
And on a better note IT’S MY BIRTHDAY … in a few days :D. It’s on the 17th of August and I CAN NOT wait … aand no, I’ll not be telling you how old I’ll be getting but I’ll be keeping you up with that and post some pics of the party!